Definition: Ready, “prepared or available for action or use: inclined, willing, available.”
I was ready to stop drinking a long time. However, I wasn’t willing to allow God in every area of my life (Step 6).
I was trapped in my self-will. My family used to say to me: “you look different, you seem like you are not here.” I knew what they meant; I wasn’t there.
Alcohol made me that way. I was different. I wasn’t there and present, yet the idea of giving it up seemed impossible.
Numerous failed attempts destroyed my self-esteem. I continued to tell myself that I was not worthy of the small glimpses of growth and progress I occasionally made.
Through work with my sponsor I uncovered that my life was consumed with fear. I knew that if I allowed fear to overtake me, my journey was doomed.
Fear, to a great extent, is born of the story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story. I decided that I was strong, and I was brave. As I insisted on this story along with yielding to the growth, I began to recognize the Holy Spirit was working within me.
My life started to change. Believe there is light at the end of the tunnel was my mantra.
“Help me to do your will, for you are my God. Lead me in good paths, for your spirit is good.” (Psalm 143:10)
I practiced patience with myself and simplified my life. As God removed my character defects I sought to replace them with something positive. I attended meetings, volunteered, and maintained healthy relationships. Over time my old way of living faded and was replaced through a life in recovery.
Does this mean life is easy? No, it continues to present challenges and obstacles. Thankfully by being ready to have God remove all of my defects of character and submitting to the change God wants to make in my life (Step 6), I take life one day at a time and live to the fullest. I rejoice in steady progress.
Time to turn off the old negative tapes and be READY to yield to the growth. It’s the Holy Spirit’s work within us. We’ll find the victory that keeps us from reverting back to our old lives.
Step 6: “We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.”
Humble yourselves before the Lord and He will lift you up. (James 4:10)
Contributed by a leader at Celebrate Recovery on the Plateau.