“Wholeness is brokenness owned and thereby healed.” Sister Barbara Fiand
I took the above quote from Brennan Manning’s book, Abba’s Child: The Cry of the Heart for Intimate Belonging (which by the way is a marvelous read for anyone, especially those of us in recovery). When I read the quote, I was struck by how much this relates to what we are about in Celebrate Recovery (CR), especially what we experience as we journey through the first several steps. It also struck me how interrelated the steps truly are.
All of us come into recovery in various stages of brokenness. I expect that nearly all of us do not realize the extent of our brokenness, but we walk through the doors of CR for a reason. Something in our lives is not working well.
We take that admission of brokenness and apply Step 1 to it. “We admitted we were powerless over our addictions and compulsive behaviors, that our lives had become unmanageable.” Stepping out of denial and acknowledging the places in our lives that are not working is what Step 1 is all about.
In Steps 2 and 3, we place that Step 1 admission at the feet of Jesus and say “HELP!! I can’t live like this anymore, and I know that I cannot heal without You.” It is this act of owning our brokenness that spurs us further down the pathway to healing, to wholeness.
Then, we come to Step 4: “We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.” In CR, we learn that the word “moral” simply means “honest.” We continue to face honestly who we are, in all our brokenness. We own our stuff, no matter how difficult that is. We know Jesus is walking with us and loves us unconditionally, regardless of our past. While taking this inventory, we acknowledge what has been done to us, what our role might have been in those inflictions, and separately acknowledge how we have hurt others in our lives, especially those we love.
But, as stated above, this whole process is tied to our owning our brokenness, to acknowledging honestly who we are. We bring that brokenness into the light of CR, where we are surrounded by Jesus and our fellow travelers. We are safe here. And, from this ownership, we are healed. Our brokenness is healed by Jesus’s Light and by our exposing our past to those who love us.
This can be a difficult process, to face our past and our brokenness. But the healing is real. And, as we experience it, it feels wonderful. Come to CR and experience this healing for yourself.
“Happy are the pure in heart.” Matthew 5:8
Contributed by a leader at Celebrate Recovery on the Plateau.