Step 2: We came to believe that a power greater than
ourselves could restore us to sanity.
It’s not by accident that I am here (at a Celebrate Recovery meeting). Relying on my own understanding of people, places, and things has caused much of my insanity. I thought I could make things better relying on my own wisdom and strength. Death was an acceptable risk in my insanity.
I was in complete despair and felt hopeless before I got into recovery. I was searching and filling the void or emptiness in my life with people, places, and things. I was unable to cope with not only life’s terms, but God’s terms. I couldn’t give what I didn’t have. I had nothing at all until I came to Jesus. God says give me your broken way, your old way for my way. He says He is the Way and I always said, “Go away.”
When I couldn’t see a way out, I fell on my knees and cried out to Jesus. And he said, “Where have you been?” He will lift you up as He says, “well done, good and faithful servant.” Now I surrender the outcomes to Him.
I believe God is in the cleaning and restoration business. Coming clean and accepting God’s forgiveness, I’m able to look others in the eye. I see myself and my actions in a new light. I open myself to God’s healing, to His reconciling, and to His restoring uplifting grace—Him who loves me in spite of myself.
I can truly say that I’m thankful for all that has happened in my life. Sure, I would change a lot of things if I could, but the reality is that I can’t. Yet in spite of my pain, my life has come full circle. God has given me the opportunity to share my experiences, victories, and hope with others through Celebrate Recovery.
“For it is God who is at work in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.” (Philippians 2:13)
Contributed by a leader at Celebrate Recovery on the Plateau.